Why is it so hard to love? Why everything just not in place? Why I'm always not as you want me to be? Am I not good enough for you? Or am I just too stupid?

I don't know anymore is it really matter or not. What does matter for me is that I can't live without you. Can't feel love without you. Need you always by my side. Need you so much in my life. Can't smile when you are not smiling. Life just don't feel good without you..